darlings

"Everything breaks.
Some things just hurt more than others."

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[Jan. 7th, 2010|01:42 pm]

Nothing hurts more than to see you not hurt at all;
I'm letting go while I'm still strong enough to.

Hi (:
Today's a pretty nice day I think, pretty clouds and all that. Not too hot too. School's starting soon, it's kind of exciting, yet now it's a bit scary too. But I know it's going to be pretty awesome, whether shitty or fun or exciting, it's just gonna be an awesome year, it has to be. It's a big year of our lives.

I need to get down to work you know. I'm so screwed. Hahaha.

I realized I got no talents. ): Which makes me kinda sad. I suck at everything, seriously! ): I think I'd rather be good in one thing than to be okay in everything. Being okay in everything just makes you like normal, nothing special, nothing you're good at. I wish I was good in something. I wish I had something I could say I was good in.

I miss C2 a lot. <3

[Jan. 7th, 2010|01:39 am]

mycoffeemachine

Whoa firefox's crashing is driving me mad D: What is with it anyway?! Should be called Firelizard or sth, HAHAHA just cos I really dont like lizards and firefox is damn sucky.

ANW back from 3D2N of chalet with the classmates! It was funnnn hahahaa I brought my camera and I didnt take a single photo, this is the first time such a thing happen :O Penny didnt stay ): And Bella + Carin only stayed for the first night! Ohwell but it was still fun at least I got to hang out with the rest! Sth I havent done since the last day of school HAHA. Hahaha I can't rmb what happened particularly but some funny bits would be Gary + Uncle Chong quarreling and MAHJONG and shouting HARLO!/OIAMANDA outside the chalet hahaha photos soon!

Today was fun! Watched housebunny early in the morning to kill time hahaha not the most appropriate show to watch with boys I think HAHA actually so was The Notebook hahaha XJ the perv only woke up at the, well, that particular scene it was actually funny. Hahahah anyway so then (fastforwardfastforward) went off to town to watch Sherlock! I think it's pretty nice :D Real witty haha bit exaggerrated though but okay la hahaha JUDE LAW <3333 FINALLY got to watch Sherlock I failed 3 times alr! Hahaha.

Then met the rest in Ion to celebrate Ty's birthday at fish and co it was fun! (: The staff were really nice and they had to do the embarrassing birthday song hahaha. Got a poloroid for free! Plus Grace and Naomi came it was funnnn! Been so super long since I last saw them (: And that sucky beng still refused to take pictures, why??? Hahahaha missed them quite abit so it was nice :D Took some pictures and since Firefox keeps crashing I shall hurry up and be done with FB and then sleep!

Met BENOH and POON after cos the rest were going clubbing hahaha camwhored alot, a damn random session hahahaha we all just started taking pictures so here you go! (:

( Gaga Ulala! )

[Jan. 6th, 2010|08:35 pm]

"I don't know what I'd do without you," It's nice hearing that once in a while.

We never know when love's coming our way. We can never be prepared enough for it. We can never move away from it. There's nothing we can do to avoid it or to chase after it. So let it be, let it go, everything will fall into place.

I love you babe. You know you'll always have me. Cheer up soon okay, I hate seeing you so upset. I'm here when you need to talk, anytime.

[Jan. 6th, 2010|07:06 pm]

Minhyuk is next! ^^

...But why is Yonghwa the last. ):

[Jan. 6th, 2010|09:23 am]

"Sometimes I think this is what life is all about - hanging on when your heart's had enough, and giving more when you want to give up."

I think ultimately, as we grow up we learn. We learn that sometimes, our hurts aren't everything that matters, that there are more important things. And sometimes we feel like our hurts are everything that consume us, it's not. There are others hurting too, others needing love. And I think as we grow up, we learn to put our hurts aside, and deal with them, because we know others need us too. We learn that after a while, things will eventually turn out okay, whether we like it or not. That no matter how hard the situation is, we'll eventually come out of it alright, as long as we don't give up. We never know how strong we are till we're faced with situations we thought we could never deal with, but eventually we do. I think as we grow up, our hearts become harder, and our beliefs become stronger. I wish our hearts never got harder from all the hurt and betrayals, but I guess it's a part of the whole cycle, and someday, the close ones we hold dear would cause our belief to unharden our hearts again.

I believe that life's about hurting, crying and growing up from it. But I also believe that life's about friends, who'll always be there for you, to pull you through when you're having the hardest times, I believe that life's about joy and laughter and making choices you know would be a mistake, cause this's life. And I think, most of the time, our life's are ruled by our hearts. So, a life without regrets, is better than a life made out of perfect choices.

[Jan. 6th, 2010|12:24 am]

To SHINee: Dubu(tofu) came out as my school lunch~~I thought of you while eating^^
From Onew: always eat well. Our fans are so skinny, I’m so worried..
Translation: jojo@weareshining.com
Credit: weareshining.com
Source: UFOTOWN.com

So funny omg. That'll be like the last answer I'd think of la, & he's the one who's forever getting injured/fainting.

I reek of barbeque okay fail.

[Jan. 6th, 2010|11:52 pm]

tearsinheaveann

Haha today has been mad I dont even know why i'm still here doing this shit haha. Morning was spent running with the Es in WelCo omg, those two you pigs lie to me!! Make me run and sweat and tire myself so much hahahhaha :D And after that was sodache, then move tables and more tables, do scary drapery, move more tables, dance test, hoist webbb in all cool fashions and TD OH booth with the help of don and home and math and msn. Damn tiring man halfway through today I thought I wouldnt last through the night D:

Chalet's tmr i'm rather happy I guess, something to take my mind off everything? Hopefully! Spending time with the same people alot has taught me alot too, and yeah it's sth I'd treasure esp since stepping down seems not to far away now. Sigh.

You'll Shine Like Gold In The Air Of Summer;

[Jan. 5th, 2010|11:28 pm]

airmailtoheaven

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First training of the year was an extremely muddy one. There were puddles of mud everywhere and by the time training was over everyone was splattered in mud one place or another. Training was at nus so i had dinner at subway nearby with ver, nat & bee.

Woke up this morning aching all over, couldn't even walk properly -.- Just goes to show how unfit I am D: Studying / gymming with yingci tomorrow in school, it's gonna be fun yay (:

Thursday is Avatar 3D day, can't wait!!!!!

I have yet to get birthday presents for five people and one is already overdue damn.

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#78: Just send me to sleep

[Jan. 5th, 2010|10:16 pm]

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I have been feeling very sleepy recently and i dont know why.
Few days left, i hope i can finish my hw by then, srsly xp

cca is everyday and i am very happy over that cos cca makes me happy with all my dancemates that i crap and laugh with. even the most unhappy thing seems to hide at the back of my mind when i am with them <3 but my legs have been very jelly recently and i dunno why, sigh, i hope i can steady myself soon :/ i hate it when i dance now.

went to get cloth with miu at arab street ytd, super legs manage to walk for nearly 2 hrs after e very tiring 2 rehearsals for open hse. went to get paint today,
7 litres on one hand, my hand almost died. and i actl had e crazy idea of carrying it home, i must be crazy, thank goodness i took bus. my elbow feel like dislocating when i carry e paint xp so heavy...zzzzzzzz. but i did it anw.
tmr is banner painting, i am excited (yeah though my post doesnt rly show cos i am very tired so not typing all e crazy smileys but i rly am very excited)

okayy i shall go off soon aft zw send me e prom vids.

i am tired, just send me to slp.

[Jan. 5th, 2010|09:43 pm]

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ate 2 whole tomatoes during dinner tonight i could eat all your tomatoes too i promise i would if only if only yknow if only...
i have like a sudden urge t take so many photos together yet i don't even know if i'd ever get t hear from the one whom i miss the most
foolishly just wanted t bag a win the other day in the end i lost so much more than i can ever afford t-
cause my thoughts and probably my whole mind went away with you
i hate it that i'm so incoherent feels like i just lost everything even the ability t express my thoughts even the ability t focus during training (sucked in training today) i don't even know if what i'm typing actually makes any sense...
all i know's that i miss you (understatement)

fuck i hate myself really hate myself what's wrong with me (you got that right)

[Jan. 5th, 2010|08:40 pm]

hadandsappy:alyalyalyy:samm17:downhearts:goingcrazy:poeticheartache:steph-ah-knee:(via wordsoflove)John Mayer was always genius .

Thanks for always being there for me. (:

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I wills

[Jan. 4th, 2010|07:17 pm]

avacadoxtofu

I will number one: STUDY. Harder than I've ever done
I will number two: FENCE
I will number three: FLOSS
I will number four: FINISH WHAT I SET OUT TO
I will number five: SLEEP AT 25 DEGREES
I will number six: NOT FORGET BIRTHDAYS
I will number seven: WRITE LETTERS MORE OFTEN
I will number eight: WORRY LESS
∞

[Jan. 4th, 2010|06:04 pm]

I lost my phone so don't bother messaging or calling me.

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[Jan. 4th, 2010|05:15 pm]

Idk if it's some sort of lousy fate but I went to collect the new pipa from Eason today and when I came back I took out my own to find that its head had dropped off (omg how did it happen la it was perfectly fine and I am not the gentlest with instruments but I will never make them broken). I mean I don't think it affects the sound but still it's a spoilt pipa rawr I shall bring it down for repair when I go back to buy the liuqin. ): *Is very sad* Plus my hand is on the verge of dropping off cos the new qin is really heavy. On the bright side, maybe it'll produce a nicer sound after repair. I wanna change the soundboard I shall ask my mummy if I can. ^^

Okay I shall catch the 7.15pm shuttle bus from Pasir Ris. Enough time for me to download videos before they are gone. ^^

[Jan. 4th, 2010|10:48 am]

i had the world in my hands but i had t go screw it all up
think i just lost the one who easily means the most t me (would you ever be back?)

is it time for school already?

[Jan. 3rd, 2010|09:47 pm]

onelittlesmile

School's starting tmr for many school kids! which includes those cute little primary one children all set for school! but today, The Straits Times reported parents spending $800 on a primary one child just to prepare him for school! Hmm children now are much more pampered isn't it?

I'm actually pretty excited about school, and i'm quite sure that deep down in me, i hope to start school tmr! because,
i kinda miss eating at canteens,
gossiping with girls at classbenches,
trying to keep awake during lectures,
completing tutorials,
studying for tests...... well i've just listed the daily routine of a typical college student.

but anyway, another part of me secretly feels happy that school's not starting tmr, because,
i'm not ready for the math test that's suppose to take place on the 1st day of school
i think there is supposed to be a bio test somewhere but hopefully the department forgot about it!(though quite unlikely), no time to study!
i need to get the study momentum back in me
and i think there are bits and pieces of undone homework.

well, so i'm kinda stuck in a dilemma, whether or not to feel happy that school's starting one week later?

anyway, i'm really determined to work hard this year yes. considering that the course that i want to get in is ~~rather~~ very competitive.
just installed a countdown timer on my com! and i'm practically staring at it now.
gosh it makes me feel super guilty. we are 9 months ,27 days,2 hours,38 mins, away to 1st nov, which is prob around alevel period. ayeee.

and efforts to ensure that i'll stay focused,
1. deactivating facebook
2. no msn unless for SL/project discussions
3. still holding on to twitter but it'll probably be on hiatus
4. i will blog less! but i guess i need to unleash the thoughts in me and blogging is the best way. and it helps improves GP! if i'm writing in proper english hahaha
5. TV to the minimum, not going to craze over any korean,hk ,taiwan dramas; PERIOD.

and if i really have the discipline and determination in me to do all of the above, i seriously think i rock.

goshhh, and i just realised that i'm less than a month away from my SAT! my preparation so far has been quite slow. though the math section is pretty manageable! wish me luck that i'll be ready for it soon!

this week entails much open house preparation for harmoc! practices,banners, flyers. a recee trip to the zoo is scheduled on tuesday for SL! that would be my first trip to the zoo after 8 years?

alright, here's to a good week to all Singaporean students, and for everyone, a great year ahead!

oh i can't imagine how sweet this is:

“Don’t you just love New Years? You get to start all over. Everybody gets a second chance.”

— ‘Forrest Gump

yes indeed, we get to do things a second time this year. and to make up for the regrets and imperfects we had in 2009.
everyone needs a second chance(:

I NEED YOU LIKE A HEART NEEDS A BEAT, BUT THAT'S NOTHING NEW

[Jan. 3rd, 2010|09:35 pm]

shuffledjoy

Was trying to find my Maclaurin's Series notes just now and in the midst of finding it, I lost my other stack of math worksheets. (Thumbs up) Okay so I give up and am going to hunt for both tmrw.
Saturday trng (after a day of team's fun the previous day) was cui and cui.
Down with slight flu for now, but my flu always gets better after one night so I suppose I'll be fine for trng tmrw? (Good job)
I can somehow envision myself to still be cui tmrw, not goooood. Please recover from your cui-ness my friend!
Okay why am I so weak physically + my knee is not getting better. Supposed to tape my knee for trng, but I can't find the tape I got from physio?! (Well done)
I think my hw is in a worse shape than me -.- Bio undone, Chem undone, Econs undone, GP I&I undone, Math left 4 topics. Sandyyyy, stop leading a slack and easy life, better buck up! ):
One happy thing, my brother's starting school tmrw but I'm not! :D He's so irritating, he stole my Famous Amos cookies lah!

Ta-da +7, favourite number! (: (: (:

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[Jan. 3rd, 2010|09:07 am]

Our lessons come from the journey and not the destination.

School's starting in a week, I'm looking forward to it, seriously. Yet also dreading it. But looking forward > dreading. I think it'll be a rather fun year. One where you see how far you can push your boundaries, one where you can study really hard, and maybe even enjoy studying. Well, you've got to learn how to enjoy it anyway, if not one of year of pure torture. Yesterday was talking to Jfn, we both agree that studying alone for a big exam sucks, it makes you feel alone and tortured, but if you've got people taking big exams with you, it's actually quite fun. (:

So 2010, you're going to be a fun year! I look forward to riding through this year with you. Because, I know it's going to be full of ups and downs. But when I look back, I know I'll be able to say it was a good year, a year which I grew from, a year I'll never forget.

Cheer up babe. I know I already gave you this verse, but here it is to remind you again, that you have faith, hope, love and me. (:

Therefore since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverence; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us. Romans 5: 1-5

Lastly, C2 is multiplying. I know it's hard, but Praise God for it okay. I know it's hard because we're all so attached to each other. But hey, we're so much more than just a cell. (: No label or multiplying can bring us down. We can still sit with each other, eat together, study together, have a C2 alumni cfd together! I love you guys a lot, and it pains me to see you all so upset. But you know something, you've got to believe me when I say that we're so much more than just a cell. We're lives that are shared, and nothing can break that apart. I love you guys, a lot.

I love you.

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brrr!

[Jan. 3rd, 2010|12:51 am]

summerainbow

Hey guys and girls bored and unexcited about life, haha, try this! really made me happier after passing all the levels myself (with slight itty bitty help from my lovelove! haha) one level only!
http://armorgames.com/play/4309/this-is-the-only-level

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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|11:36 pm]

Yonghwa and Hongki keep holding hands!

I'd be damn sad if two of my favourite celebrities turned gay with each other. ):

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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|08:52 am]

Here’s a toast to the good days, the better friends. The ones that you just can’t live without. The people that have taught you how to party, how to live, how to have a good time just sitting around. Here’s to the people that, no matter how bad things seem, are going to be there for you to lean back on and catch you if you fall.

I wanted to list out who this goes to, but there's just too many. So just the more important few okay.
Here's to Jem, Deb, Nel, Joan c, Joan n, Joanne, Daphne, Jayna, Cheryl, Yishun and Beehiang. (:

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[Jan. 1st, 2010|11:31 pm]

I used to miss you so much, but it never seemed like you missed me. And I guess- Because of that, I stopped missing you.

“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.”

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#77: White lies

[Jan. 1st, 2010|08:28 pm]

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( A piece of the thought )

#76: The soundtrack in my life

[Jan. 1st, 2010|08:17 pm]

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HELLOOOOOOO! okay so today is e first day of 2010, i am currently stuck on com (as expected) instead of doing work :D but k...i guess i can forgive myself since it's e first day of e yr and it's a PUBLIC HOLIDAY (for my brain and hands too :D) though i shld start my yr on a good note by being hardworking xD

woke up rather late and in a midst of rush & what not my whole family headed to jurong for BOWLING O.o like oooh, e last time i touched it was 2 yrs ago or sth at dance chalet xp so anw, hahaha it starts well followed by straight zeros into drain (-.-) so it was quite fail :D but i spared once anw :D hahah, strike was not in my dictionary xp

came home wanted to do work but FAIL. ohwells haha i can make it up tmr :D tmr is full day study at library :D yes com no more distraction from u :D i shall try to motivate myself to do more :D

on an exciting note....SUNDAY THERE IS A HALF DAY PICNIC WITH MY 4 BUDDS :D havent met them in ages :D exciting cos yunghian has gifts for us too :D YAYNESS! <3

btw i see MJ on tv...like omy i am freaking out so i am not watching e tv at all :/ i am scared of him >.< but his songs are not bad :p

[Jan. 1st, 2010|05:03 pm]

@ this rate i'm gna be mind fucking insane anytime soon
just think the worst of me, just think only k fml seriously
容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍

(nothing t each other?)

Good Morning Lethargy

[Jan. 1st, 2010|02:13 pm]

onesixtheden

Antonella Arismendi, I like you very very much. The discovery of you has just made my entrance to 2010 so much cheerier.

For some reason I don't feel safe enough to reveal my specific new year resolutions on my blog anymore, I suppose it is because I never live up to them. For that they shall remain either permanently in my head or in some private entry, I don't know. The same few, the same few. In summary my entire life is about striking that perfect balance between my academics, my friends, my family, my weight, my money. And little things that I never seem to be able to achieve but still forever strive to, e.g. stand up straight, sit up straight, listen in class, be less vulgar, gossip less. Yawn, I know. I am nothing close to a refined young lady, but sometimes I pretend to be. Or pretend to be pretending. As usual, so many beautiful things, so many tedious but compulsory things, so little time. I foresee nightmares in the year ahead. 2009 has been a bad year for me, academically, physically, everything. Having said that, however, HP has been alot of fun despite all the competition, I would never trade the friends I've made for any other; for that I am grateful. One more year, people, lets hope we survive A levels and all its evil affiliations.

Also I just realized that my grandfather looks a great deal like Charlie Sheen's latest mugshot. What a way to start a year. Happy 2010, everyone♥♥♥

[Jan. 1st, 2010|03:20 am]

All unhappiness aside, let's welcome the new year with a screenshot of Hongki.

I was pretty sad when Geunsuk walked out. ): HAHA I'm such an abnormal YAB fan.

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[Jan. 1st, 2010|12:25 am]

tearsinheaveann

2009 came, stayed and left so quickly. So much happened over this one year, which was very much happening for me, being in hwachong itself :) So many good things happened I dont even know how to summaries them all. Just wanted to say a big thank you for everyone who stayed by my side over the past year, regardless of what happened! I know this year was so much about Council and so little about other things, but I must say Council made me happy but still I know i sucked when I neglected people and things along the way.. new year's resolution :D Whatever it is, you people up there made my day in every single way possible, and 2009 was amazing knowing that you guys were a huge part of it. I would have already said individual thanks by now, so you know how glad I am so yes, love you guys!! <3

Happy new year, 2010 much!

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#75: Goodbye 2009

[Dec. 31st, 2009|09:46 pm]

Goodbye 2009 in less than 3 hr.

well i am too lazy to post all e reflection and stuff but this yr has a lot of its ups and downs lah. academic wise still okay, just need to make myself study more consistenly. A lvl nxt yr like omy. friendship wise...welll i have kept in contact with some of those i am close to and distant from some others, so nxt yr...mmm gotta manage my time well.

But i have gained a lot of new things this yr which i must thank for :p Nice class (09S78 and e crazy grp of geog girls+ zhiying (: ), HCCD & new friends (plus those old ones that i love :P), dum dum (yes yes u can niao me if u want xD) and many more new friends i know from different friends. and yeah gain new knowledge (cancer, virus -.-) :D

but mmm....ppl whom i need to contact more. 207 gang (exclude huiying :D), 412 close friends (hui ryl!), and TWINNIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (when are u free D: e last memory i had of us is us laughing like mad on bus over e games in ur itouch xD )

so new yr resolution & wish: work hard for evth and hope i do well for evth :D

so long ppl, i dont feel like blogging alrd bye :D